. . . lying frustrate on the rug / i said it was the last

Lying frustrate on the rug

You were expecting me

You were expecting me to be this-

You had been watching, you were watching me, you watched me before I noticed that

You had been there the whole time.

And you watched and expected me to not crumple into ugly folds  send creases crevices into thin shadowed places that I know you saw but

you          did it.

You went there anyway. Would've let you go all the way because I wanted what you were

To me so bad. So bad so desperately. We were both wanting. So we went

And took

And crumpled in the process






Are you still


     Yeah, I know
. . . I am.